I took a day off from work due to feeling unwell for the first time in a while.
My joints ached, and I was hit with a fever and chills. To top it off, my stomach felt bloated and hurt.
I thought it might be Influenza B, which has been going around lately, but I tested negative at the hospital.
I've been lying in bed all day today.
Now, as I write this article, I'm finally starting to feel much better.
I even managed to eat some rice porridge for dinner. Come to think of it, I hadn't eaten anything since breakfast yesterday.
Feeling bloated, lacking an appetite, and not even feeling hungry is a quite rare experience for me.
Work has just been extremely busy lately.
I've been working late a lot, and I admit my lifestyle had become slightly irregular.
In addition to company-wide initiatives and new trials as a platform owner, my current projects are also reaching their peak. On top of that, a team member transitioned jobs, making it quite an intense situation.
However, all of these things are important, and I believe it's only natural to do them.
That's why I've been careful not to give off a "this is too hard" or "I'm so busy" vibe to those around me.
Though in reality, my lack of sleep might have shown slightly on my face or in my demeanor.
Because I was in such a tightrope-walking situation, being forced to spend the whole day sleeping today was actually a really well-timed recovery day.
And as I lay blankly in bed, I realized something.
Whether it's dedicating almost all of my weekdays to work because I'm busy, or resting slowly all day as a sick person—even though the situations are completely different—it's actually really "easy" in the sense that the "thing to do is clear."
Normally, daily life is much more complex.
You have to juggle work while caring for your family and social relationships, carving out time for yourself, and making progress on future goals concurrently.
But when you have the excuse of "extreme busyness at work" or "being sick," you can focus solely on that one thing. The people around you absorb and cover the things you drop.
I realize this is something to be truly grateful for. Of course, this only works if you have built a proper relationship with your family and stakeholders.
I am naturally a person who struggles with handling multiple things at once.
That's exactly why I utilize tools to somehow manage to keep things under control concurrently.
But I felt anew that I should be more intentional about creating situations like this time, where the "thing to do is simple and clear."
My health is recovering, but I expect the current intense work situation will basically remain unchanged until the end of May.
That is precisely why I want to ride out this wave by experimenting with creating an environment where I can tackle things in a state where the "thing to do is clear."
Once again, I must thank my family and those involved who covered for me.
I think I'll let myself rest just a little bit more today.
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