The Reality of a Rough Start

As January comes to a close, I've been reflecting on the theme I set for the beginning of 2026: "Scrap and Build."

To be brutally honest, my situation has only deteriorated since the year began. While there are external factors at play, I cannot deny that much of this falls on my own shoulders. It is important to analyze each issue deeply, but today, I want to record how I feel and think about this current state of affairs. This is not just a diary entry; it is a necessary log for my future self.

The Miscalculation: Changing the Wrong Target

I realized recently that I may have misunderstood the target of my "Scrap and Build" initiative. There is a common saying: "You cannot change others; you can only change yourself."

Right now, I am feeling the weight of those words more than ever. I had been unconsciously trying to "scrap and build" my environment or the people around me. But the truth is, the entity that needs to be torn down and rebuilt is myself.

It is often said that to change your environment, you must first change yourself. I am now facing this reality head-on. I must "scrap and build" my own mindset, habits, and reactions.

Battling Weakness and Seeking Comfort

However, this is easier said than done. I am a person who is incredibly susceptible to the temptation of comfort and habit. I am weak to my own desire to take the easy way out.

It is precisely because of this weakness that I must undergo this process. The positive impact of successfully reinventing myself would be immense.

Honestly, it feels troublesome. It is tedious. It would be so much easier to just go through the daily grind of work, accepting a mediocre life. But I know that if I choose that path, a disappointing and regretful future awaits me. I have realized this, and now I must take action directly against it.

A Declaration for 2026

My goal is a goal for this year. This means I must complete this transformation within 2026.

January is ending. However, I want to be able to look back and say that this month was valuable because it allowed me to recognize the true issue: course correction.

If I do not declare this now, I know I will revert to my old self within a few months. That is why I am writing this article. I am leaving this log so that the future me can look back at this moment and see it as the starting point of a version of myself worth praising. The real "Scrap and Build" starts now.

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